10 Questions for Today, Monday, June 30, 2008

1. What is your favorite word? scheherazade or chiaroscuro
2. What is your least favorite word? gangsta
3. What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally? seeing something made well
4. What turns you off? conflict, people who disrespect others
5. What is your favorite curse word? RATS!
6. What sound or noise do you love? The deep silence of snow
7. What sound or noise do you hate? My children fighting with one another
8. What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? Ballet or midwifery
9. What profession would you not like to do? Mechanic or landscaper
10. If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? Heaven CERTAINLY does exist and I want Him to say to me, "Well done, thou good and faithful servant!"

A Concern

God tells me that His grace is sufficient for me. This is what I must remember above all else. I get mired down sometimes by my circumstances and feel that there is no end. It is difficult when one that you love, one that you have birthed, one that you "feel" should be maturing, seems as crazy as a toddler. I was feeling sorry for myself as I read an article about a couple going on a cruise, leaving their children with the grandmother. I sometimes think that that will never happen. The only time I will ever get away is when the child is grown and living with someone else. Please don't misunderstand. I love this child. I asked for this child. God is teaching me. I am not sure what, but He is teaching me. I am growing through the difficulties with this child.
I feel guilty for feeling lighthearted when this child is not with me. I LOVE when he goes to camp. I have a whole week of calm. Yet, I am nervous. I am worried that any minute I will get a call from the camp. "Mama, I am in trouble. You will have to come pick me up."
The fact is that I needn't borrow trouble. God knows. He watches this child. He watches me. He knows my thoughts and my concerns. I must just lean on Him. I must pray for this child. I must give him to God and let God calm my fears and my worries.
His grace is sufficient for me.

Aiden's Words

"I want to take gymNapstics, Mama."

"I want to marry Kenzie, but only when I am a DAD." (Dad and Mom is what my children call Husband and Wife)

List of Things I Secretly Wish Were True

1. I secretly wish I was from Scotland! Yes, the land of mists and rain. Scotland.
2. I secretly wish I was named Claire Elisabeth.
3. I secretly wish I had blue eyes.
4. I secretly wish I could really love opera - you know, crying like Julia Roberts in "Pretty Woman".
5. I secretly wish I could have been a member of "Truth".
6. I secretly wish I could have breastfed all my children for at least two years.
7. I secretly wish I could have homebirthed all of my children.
8. I secretly wish I could time travel back to the 1700's, BUT only as a very wealthy woman.
9. I secretly am amazed that people really do think that ABORTION is ok for any reason.
10. I secretly wish that I could heirloom sew whenever I wanted and that money was no issue.
11. I secretly wish that Diana Gabaldon could keep writing the Outlander series forever.
12. I very unsecretly love HIMSELF - he is SOOOO dreamy.

Summer is here!

Last week was Art Camp at church. We were SO busy. This week we have....nothing! The rest of the summer is filled with, well, summer. We are meeting friends at the sprinkler park this morning. I need to go to the grocery this afternoon. I am having the children do one school book a day. Ren will probably do more. He really needs the challenge of working on more stuff each day.
I am starting the weight watchers core plan today. I am accepting the challenge myself of taking a risk and doing something that is good for me. I am worried about diabetes and high blood pressure. I am worried that I am going to fail and not go forward. I am worried that I will give up. I SO want to do this and do it right.
We tried a new church yesterday. Unfortunately, we got there at 10 'til 11 and the service had started at 10! So, I guess we will try again next Sunday.
On a sewing note, I HAVE to get the babies birthday outfits done. I thought I had the right pattern, but I have to get it from Pattie instead. I will see her tonight at sewing class.

Summer is Here!

Well, not technically, but according to the thermometer it is! We finished baseball season. The team party is tonight at one of the player's homes. The MHEA Eagles won the World Series they played in last weekend. It was so exciting. They won the first game. They won the second game. They won the third game. All that was left was the final game...they did it! They beat the other team. They are the champions! WAAAAHOOOO!!

We spent yesterday at the pool. It is obvious based on the tomato redness of our skins! Reed, Ren and I got burned. We used sunscreen..except for Reed. We burned anyway. Nothing like that Scotch/Irish heritage coming out. Fortunately for Reed, his Indian heritage will turn his burn into a beautiful tan. Ren and I are just not so lucky. We will have more freckles.

The weekend with Himself's brothers went well. A few hitches here and there, but overall a good time for all. Everyone even survived a walk around Shelby Farms during a horrid thunderstorm.